Alright I'm back again with another journal

First I want to say that I admire those who have a certain form of determination very much. Those who know what they want and fight for it, with all their strength. Why? Because I don't have it. I almost always know what I want when it's already gone. And if I do know what I want when there is still a chance. Then I'm too scared stiff of... whatever... that I still do not do anything. So yeah, I do wish I had that certain form of determination. And in fact I do not intend to moan about anymore. I intend to act.

So why this all of a sudden. Well, I saw the movie Slumdog Millionaire. And among other things it about a boy who will do everything to 'save' the love of his life. And maybe it was the fact that my girlfriend just broke up, or maybe it was that I just then saw how empty my lovelife had been for years. It probably was both. But it hit me hard. That he had that determination to go on, no matter what and never give up on her. It is someone I lacked.

Because I know there is such a girl in my life for me and she is still there around and I actually know how to contact her, though she lives miles and miles away. And I knew this for a long long time. So why did I never call her? I dunno. I was scared stiff for how she would react to hear of me again. Scared of nothing but ghosts that only existed in my mind.

But that all changed. I just called her. She was surprised, but I think not in a bad way. And we're going to the movies next week.

so maybe I do have some sort of determination. Or maybe it was just there for those 10 minutes and left after it did it's job. Anyway... Well all well's that ends well

second thing I want to say is this:

Got this from: ~AlbanyBlue

Here's how it works:

1. Be one of the first 10 people commenting on this journal entry, and I will add you to the "Promotional List".

2. For each of the first 10 people answering this journal I will put his or her avatar and the three deviations I like most from his or her gallery on the list.

3. If you answer, you'll have to do the same on your journal, putting me in the first position. Then rinse and repeat!

I'll have to see more of her deviations before I will pick what I think are the best. So expect an update of this journal